Changing

one thing at a time

I feel like life is so vividly changing around me right now, It’s as if I can feel Summer becoming Fall. Soon my first semester of college will be here. August 18th isn't that far away now. It’s funny to me that I’m now an “Adult” I don’t feel that way at all, I feel younger. I feel as if soon I will be able to run as fast as my legs can carry me and as long as my lungs can hold, just waiting for that is getting me antsy.

Soon I will be able to study what I want, forge my own path, learn who I am. I never really felt like public school taught me how to live, to create, and to think outside the box. I never felt like I was really a part of it, hopefully that will change. In all honesty I was never good at being what people wanted because I never knew who I was and what I wanted.

Soon I will get to have bills, a car, privileges both denied to me as well as privileges I've earned simply by staying alive for 18 years. It has always bothered me that people measure by age and not maturity, I just hope that as I grow up I don’t just grow older but grow as a person ( not too tall though because I am already up there in height : ).

Things that have already changed are that I got my first boyfriend, he is always really sweet to me. It is very weird that I have an object of my affection because my family doesn't really show that very well, I’m kind of sorry for him because I have no absolutely no idea what to do in a relationship, It’s a good thing I’m cute right? It’s kind of like building a model airplane with frosting as glue, kind of crazy and I have no idea if it actually works. I do hope very much that everything works out for the better.

I have also acquired my first credit card, that’s pretty scary to me, I mean I’m already in debt by it because I had to buy books for my classes. Debt is rampant in the United States of America and I do not want to add to their numbers just because I want that diamond studded pink purse dangling in a store window for 5% off.

Something different is also happening in my life, my big brother is getting married to one of the best girls in the world for time and all eternity. I am so excited for them! It’s coming up soon and I couldn't be happier.

But hey, Life throws some interesting curve-balls. What really matters isn’t the amount of money, degrees, businesses, or cars but how you get there and what you do with your life when no one is there to beat up on you. Thank heavens for all of the bad, and the good things that happen in my life, because no matter what I want to rise to the occasion.