The alarm sounds off at 5:30 am, but you are already awake. Several times throughout the night, you awaken to check the clock: 1:37 am, 3:11 am…5:02 am.
Last night, just before dropping into bed, seeds of anxiety are planted into your mind as you mentally review unfinished tasks, dread tough conversations, and prepare for the big presentation. You cannot risk oversleeping!
At some point, you wonder if it’s all worth it. You look back and realize that if you had known that this is the way it was going to be, you would have declined to dream big. But, you did dream big, and now…you are awake…and anxious.
But, there’s a glimmer still — a sliver of hope. That is what is so frustrating. Even in the midst of the internal storm, you still believe in your vision. You are still passionate about the idea of making a difference.
Yeah, that chip in your brain that causes you to dream — the dream chip — you wish you could just eject it. It hurts too much.
Originally published at stevenachaparro.com on February 23, 2016.