Am I wrong for this?

Every so often I think about my past experiences , bad or good, and reflect on them and what they taught me. However, when I do this I somehow not use it as a way to move forward. At all. As in, I may think about it every now and then, but I don’t use it to guide me, nor do I use it to remind me of why some experiences were not good.

I may not be the only who does this, in fact I’m almost certain I’m not the only one. How can I as a person force myself to use those memories, or experiences to guide me? How can I change the way I think now to something better? Or more mature? Am I wrong for what I’m doing, or this something normal that I must get used to? For whatever reason, this makes me feel like an idiot. No doubt about it. If I can’t stop looking back at the past, how can I ever move forward? If I can’t learn to use past learning experiences to help me, how can I ever be successful? I’ve heard many stories about people who have become so successful MAINLY because of their past, and how it’s helped them achieve better and greater things. I want to be the same way, but with the mentality I have now, how can I EVER become successful if I can’t ever learn to learn from my past?

Maybe I’m not crazy, maybe I’m just stuck. I often worry about becoming a failure and letting my parents down, and I feel that if I keep staying on the same page I’m at now I will never grow up, nor become what I’ve dreamt of being for 10 years. Right now I feel confused and frustrated. Which is weird because I have a lot of good things going on for me right now, but with all the stress that follows has drowned me in the deepest of seas. God forbid the day I go insane.

Take it easy everyone, stay calm.

XStina^