Summer Isbetterthanwinter1 year, 2 mos: A small, but sweet act of revenge against the mistressI have been playing with and obsessing over thoughts of revenge since day 1. “Playing” makes it sound fun. It’s not. It is more…Oct 11, 20192Oct 11, 20192
Summer IsbetterthanwinterMonth 8: Valentine’s Day, etc.Around the time when my husband started sleeping in our bed again and I stopped getting up at 3 am, I stopped needing/wanting to write…Oct 11, 20191Oct 11, 20191
Summer IsbetterthanwinterAlmost 1 year later: My dad diesIt is 5:30 pm on Monday, July 8, 2019. My dad died exactly 2 weeks and 12 hours ago.Oct 4, 20191Oct 4, 20191
Summer IsbetterthanwinterDays 171–174: Non-French, no tongueNow that my husband is sleeping in our bed again and I’m sleeping a little better, I don’t have the many hours of early morning time for…Oct 4, 2019Oct 4, 2019
Summer IsbetterthanwinterDay 152: I text the mistress on her birthdayNote/update (about 480 days later): It’s been over a year since all of this started and I have dozens and dozens of unpublished posts…Oct 4, 20191Oct 4, 20191
Summer IsbetterthanwinterDay 49: Stabbing stuffI wake a little after 3 am. The full 1 mg of Xanax gave me about 6 hours of sleep. Only about 30–60 minutes more than the 1/2 mg. I…Oct 4, 2019Oct 4, 2019
Summer IsbetterthanwinterDay 48: Pressure washingI wake after 5:00 am. This seems like a dramatic improvement but I went to bed late. It’s about 5 1/2 hours of sleep, thanks to the 1/2 mg…Sep 27, 2019Sep 27, 2019
Summer IsbetterthanwinterDay 47: Melancholy and the Infinite SadnessI have decided that I want to go on antidepressants. I want out of these feelings. I want to be able to sleep. I am very much hoping that…Sep 27, 2019Sep 27, 2019
Summer IsbetterthanwinterDay 46: Lawyer upIt is 6:30 am. Because I went to sleep so late, I sleep till a little after 5:00 am. The .5 mg Xanax can be relied on for a good 5 hours…Sep 27, 2019Sep 27, 2019
Summer IsbetterthanwinterMonth 15: Revenge is a dish best served cold (Part 1)I’ve not kept up with my posts here. I keep starting and not finishing.Sep 15, 2019Sep 15, 2019