Another Dark Night with Doubts
Journal Entry 3–18–20 Part of “3 Years to Online Freedom Journey”
As I watch business, friends and family lose work, money and fall into stressful despair with the Corona Virus Pandemic, I began to reflect pensively at my long term goals. Driving long into the dark night of near empty roads, I wondered:
Would anything I have to offer online be of value?
Would it get lost in the sea of more people thinking online income was as easy as opening a lemonade stand on the corner?
Would this wave of ‘virus jail’ be a regular occurrence much like the seasonal flu or allergies and make entire populations stop for months at a time in the future?
The more miles of open road I traveled in the dark and rainy night the more my spirits dampened. Perhaps this 3 year journey was in vain. Maybe I was simply wasting three years and would look back with depair. Also, a bit of self judgement, why hadn’t I started three years ago? Maybe it was too late to start.
So many thoughts rained down in my mind matching the rain hitting the windshield. I climbed into bed hoping tomorrow would be a sunny day.
With the morning light I had a fresh outlook. The sun poked through the clouds and rain was forecasted as a possibility. The weather report seemed to match my mood. I still felt the stress of the pending doom looming in the distance but I could see bits of sunshine poking through as I started my day.
I sat at my computer to check my emails and stats on my online platforms as I do each morning and found good news! Like the sun poking through the clouds, I had picked up a few claps to my stories, some new Medium followers and on my YouTube channel a few more subscribers! Yay!
I was reminded of a fable I had heard long ago. The Tortoise and the Hare. We all know how it goes:
The Hare was bragging about being super fast and finally the tortoise, tired of all the bragging, spoke up and challenged the hare to a race. The over confident hare scoffed and accepted. At the start the hare took off super fast while the tortoise put one foot in front of the other and plodded along.
The Hare stopped, being so far ahead and so confident he would win, he took a nap. While napping the tortoise passed the sleeping hare and won the race.
In today’s instant gratification world, the nap would be equivalent to quitting too soon, not seeing the finish line so let’s try something else or letting the external world press upon my path.
Moral: Don’t be a hare…LOL
I smiled and decided to plod through my scheduled tasks as my dark night faded into yesterday. Looking into the light cloud filled sky, today would be another step forward toward my end goal.
No naps here!
