It Is Working For Your GOOD.

It’s took me 21 years to be unashamed of my faith, and proud of the woman that I’m becoming…in the words of keke palmer “the gag is” I’m only 24. Think about all the time that I wasted trying to change what I looked like, sounded like, dressed like, or just hiding the fact that God was a major part of my life. Now I know you’ve heard the saying “if it wasn’t for God I don’t know where I’ll be”, but I wouldn’t be speaking MY truth if I didn’t say it. The fact is, God’s hand has been on my life in a major way since I was born. He knew that I would be born to a 19 year old who wasn’t able to take care of me. He knew that I would lose my twin sister at the age of three and feel half full for the majority of my childhood. He knew that my siblings and I, would be separated and sent into foster homes, only to experience great pain/abuse. He knew that I would go through my childhood having never seen a baby picture of myself and always wondering who I was. He knew that at 18 I would meet a boy and go through a tulmutuous relationship that would cause me to lose friends, and be judged. He knew that I would struggle with connecting with others on a deeper level out of fear of losing them, or that they would hurt me. He knew that I would find my birth mother at 23, only to be disappointed by her again. HE Knew.

He knew that I had to experience all of those things because the call he has on my life is so big that unless I knew what it meant to suffer great loss, be unsure of myself sometimes, and even have to realign myself back to God, I wouldn’t be able to handle the purpose in store. You see everything that you go through isn’t to cripple you, but rather to GROW you, so that you can help someone else. We always see our circumstances as another obstacle to overcome, but what if we started seeing them as opportunities. Opportunities to allow God to grow our faith beyond our wildest dreams. Again, I never thought that the very thing I hid from, being a foster child, my past abuse, loss of my twin sister, having low self-esteem, would be things that would end of being used to help me connect with others. While I was going through these things I only saw them as things that isolated me from others, but by the grace of God, He was able to show me differently.

Here I am at 24, having gotten to travel to an award show, and meet celebrities I only saw on TV and in movies, getting paid to be an advocate for Foster Youth, and I’m still amazed. I used to wish that I wasn’t adopted, that it was something no one would find out, but now I stand proudly telling people my story as a testament to God’s grace, even when I didn’t deserve it. I don’t say anything to boast on myself, but rather, on God’s goodness/mercy on my life. That a little girl who was once a ward of the state, is now able to look back and see that God was with me every step of the way. If you take nothing else away from this post, understand, that no matter where you are, and what life throws at you, as long as you’re willing to turn to God and ask him to be a part of your life, not just in the bad times, but in your everyday, He WILL walk with you. In doing so, it’s not a guarentee that there won’t be any hard times, but it is a guarantee that you will ultimately, end up right where you were meant to be

Scripture References:

• Philippians 1:6 And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ
• •Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

Until next time loves,

Tasha ♥