Everything is upside down.

Wrong is right and right is left and truth are lies and love is hate and hate is love and you are mine and I am no ones. And I spin until I’m falling down and just like that the waves in my heart crash against its walls – and I can’t breathe because the ocean is within me and the blood running through my veins is trapped in the undertow.

I want to scream, but my heart wont let my mouth open up to speak, so my head continues to flip round and round.

Faster and faster it spins.

Trying to think of al the feelings one feeling at a time.

Anger, pain, sadness, happiness, sadness, anger, hurt, lust, pain, love, and love, and love, and sadness.

And my head won’t shut up and the waves in my heart won’t stop moving and all I want is the quiet and calm that accompanies sleep.

But when I close my eyes, I see you. I know sleep won’t come, so I cry – the waves in my heart burst through the backs of my pupils and the thoughts in my head fall out of my mouth in gags and whimpers.

And the insanity continues. On and on and on – and you were the one who had kept it all quiet.

Where are you now? Everything is upside down.