I am unbelievably proud of you. What you have done is one of the hardest things any human can do. Regardless of the outcome for him, you have won this battle.
You should be proud of that. You knew this was going to be one of your hardest days, and you stood up to your fear and you got through it.
And you will, over time, come back to a new normal. One where you know you can stand up for yourself, speak out and tell your abuser “No. You shall not abuse me any longer. I will use my voice to make it stop.”
A new normal where you will know that you are not worthless, you are not useless, you are not incomplete, and you are most certainly not alone.
You are loved. You are whole. And we are here.