I know how blessed you feel to have the child that you have (not sure if this is your only, or one…
Alexainie
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You just made me cry. Again. Dammit.

She is my one and only child. And I AM blessed to have her… whatever that means..! (I am an atheist, so? Blessings are a little… off for me..? If you know what I mean..?) But I have been gifted with her existence in my universe, and I am Thankful she is here…!

I guess the part that I struggle with…? Is if I truly am open and accepting?

Why does she not know this…? What am I projecting??

Is it a legacy of my childhood…???

What is SHE seeing that I am not, that she is worried..?

I MUST be missing something…

Not that I’m doing something wrong… Only that I’m missing…

SOMETHING.

I must be…!

It drives me batshit sometimes. Because I do NOT want that.

I strove to do BETTER.

But..? I’m missing… SOMETHING.

*sigh*

I’m working on it… With her help.

:/

Meanwhile?

Thank you. Your words mean a LOT! XO