A Positive Purposeful Pass-along
It’s the middle of the summer, i’m sitting in the backyard of my house and I’m reflecting. Reflecting on the journey and the choices I’ve made that have brought me to this exact moment in time.
I look around and I see a tennis ball off to the right and I’m reminded of the time I was about 13 and my mom broke her ankle playing tennis at the park.
Looking back on that situation, I’m reminded of the strength my mom showed at the point in time. I remember vividly one night she was rolling around in a chair through the kitchen, mopping the floor. My sisters and I were already used to cleaning around the house but for some reason my mom was mopping the kitchen floor using 1 leg and a rolling chair. She could’ve told us to do it and it would’ve gotten done but she didn’t ask us to. I wonder if she knew what she was doing. By not asking us and doing it herself despite her broken ankle, I wonder if she knew the impact that choice would have on her son 15 years later.
Her display of strength at that time will forever be the moment I learned what strength truly was,
the ability to do what is seen as tough to do, at the time you have to do it.
It still amazes me how ONE choice can affect your own life and the life of someone else so significantly. One of the things I’d like to improve on is my decision making. I want to do a better job of being consciously aware how my choices affect others and still be able to make the best decisions.
I’m aware of how the choices I’ve made have shaped me to be who I am, but it sucks not knowing how many people you truly affected and shaped over the years by making the decisions you’ve made. For the people that were affected in a negative way by the choices i made, id like to apologize to. For the people that I’ve affected in a positive way id like to let you know that it makes me happy I was able to have an affect on you in a good way. For both groups id like to let you know that I’m striving everyday to make better choices that affect more people in a positive way.
Theres a saying that goes
If I’d knew better I’d do better
for some reason that shot to the front of my mind but I hope by you reading that quote, it takes a positive affect on you and allows you to realize that you have the STRENGTH within yourself to forgive yourself for the mistakes you made in the past. That situation in your head, that one you’re thinking about right now, exercise the strength to forgive yourself for it and let it go because after all, if you knew better, you’d do better. Hey, NOW YA KNOW. INHALE. EXHALE. LET. THAT. GO.
