This is about the time I chose not to die.
Mike Monteiro

Thank you so much for this. I particularly resonated with the family attitude. I don’t blame my parents, who were doing the best they could, but it would have saved me so much time and heartache if my mom had had the self-awareness to sit me down as a kid and just say, “We have depression and anxiety in our family, these are the symptoms I have dealt with all my life, and if you start experiencing them come talk to me and we will get you some help.” Instead, I saw my mom’s weird compensating behavior and assumed, that because I felt the same way, this was just “normal” and how everyone felt, so I should just suck it up and deal with it, like she did. I’m now in my 40s and I have an array of tools at my disposal that allow me to live a normal life and manage my symptoms, but it took a whole lot of therapy, medical help, and plain old trial-and-error to get there, and I almost didn’t survive the process. Thank you again, for sharing.