Through it All

Sarah Marie Buxton
Sep 8, 2018 · 3 min read
Back to the basics of bald

Last week, I noticed a bald spot on top of my head, right in the middle of all of my beautiful hair. With disappointment I thought, “And so it begins again.

But with this new loss, I know now, more than ever, that God’s not done writing my story.

Earlier this week, I was at Wednesday night church, singing along to the invitation song. I was standing in the second row listening to the lyrics of the song by Bethel that went,

“Through it all,

Through it all,

My eyes are on you

And it is well with me.”

I was standing there listening to these words and was thinking about the growing bald spot on top of my head. As I wrote in my last post, the song, “It is Well” has been the theme of my journey of losing my hair, shaving my head, and the regrowth I experienced. Now that it’s falling out again, hearing this new twist on my favorite hymn really spoke to my heart.

In the words of my 15-year-old brother, my hair had a nice run these last couple of months

It’s pretty easy to sing those words without thinking about them. But as I stood there singing and listening, God’s peace and love overwhelmed me and I knew everything was going to be okay, just like it’s been okay for the last eight years.

Barber Jed. He gives one heck of a haircut.

So last night, my sweet boyfriend and wonderful mother shaved my head again.

I’ll go back to wearing wigs and rocking the bowling ball look. I’ll go back to shaving it every three days to keep it smooth. I’ll go back to having opportunity after opportunity to share about God’s goodness and love to those who ask about my hair.

But for today, I am grateful for a family who loves me, a special someone who doesn’t care whether or not I have hair, and a loving God who has a plan.

Who knows what is to come, but through it all, I’ll keep my eyes on the Lord and it will be well with me.

This life is filled with disappointments. Not just the disappointment when you discover the girl in the drive-thru gave you Diet Coke instead of regular Coke (although, that is quite a tragedy). I’m talking about a disappointment that makes you question and doubt God’s methods. You might wonder if He’s even with you anymore.

Photo Courtesy of Ally Jeppsen Photography

I’ve been there. This week. Many times. But just like He’s not finished using me, He’s certainly not finished with you either. Are you willing to set aside your disappointments and follow Him, even if that means doing something uncomfortable?

I’m trying to be able to say, “yes” to this question without hesitation. It’s not easy. But God is faithful when we are faithless. He is strong when we are weak. And He is present when we think He has forgotten us. So let’s trust Him and keep our eyes on Him… through. it. ALL.

“I keep my eyes always on the Lord. With Him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.” -Psalm 16:8

    Sarah Marie Buxton

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    Lover of Jesus | @DruryUniversity Strat Comm ’19 | Proud @OTCedu grad |Always Smiling

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