Some Junes ago I started to grow

Unconscious, embarked on a scare

Who’s punished for endin’ a life, bro?

In an inclement September nightmare…

From sordid cracks in concrete illusion

I bravely conceived a new world.

I chose to party my deep confusion

While my rebel torture was still unheard.

If you are 40+ and you have some of the following symptoms:

1. You hold books or your phone away from your face to see them
2. Need more light for close work
3. Experience eyestrain after long reading sessions
4. Have dry eyes more and more often
5. Don’t feel comfortable driving in the dark

You may be nearsighted (you have presbyopia.)

Your everyday existence, as you know it, is going to transform. You now depend on your glasses to read and perform activities at a close distance. If you haven’t experienced dependence so far, welcome to the rest of your life. …

What are you thinking right now? What are you doing? Are you listening to music? What music? Where do you live? What other sounds do you hear? Do you have a sore throat? Are you scratching your head, rubbing your eyes? Are you tired? Happy? Alone? Is someone calling you? Is that a FB update? Are you going to wash your hair tonight?

Did you have a purpose in mind when you started reading this letter? Just think for a second. Are you reading this to kill time, or do you know me, follow me, or are you just intrigued…

Part of a customized 7-year ongoing project of self-realization.

Useful tips and tricks to gaining inner peace sooner than I did. The sole purpose of this piece is to help you understand how you can become more balanced and consequently live the best life.

1. Focus your attention

Focus your full attention on exactly what you are doing/what is going on. Are you washing the dishes? Then examine the detergent bubbles, watch your hands move slowly (a bit slower than you usually would), smell, touch, etc. I usually count the moves I make or the breaths I take while washing the dishes so that…

The silence.

Not the greatness, as humans attach that meaning.

We are taught that big is frightening.

The fear.

Yes, because this is what we are taught to feel in front of God’s work.

Later, love.

I was 26 and walked in the streets of New York for the first time.

Hadn’t experienced a lot of fear of God back then.

I felt fear looking up at the skyscrapers.

But there was no silence.

That pain

That yearning

Clenching in my chest

Like a retch and no vomit of my flesh

Like a coffee withdrawal vortex

The ascension

Tears

Prayer.

And then the relapse into atheism

And philosophy.

I need love.

Three words

Eight letters

One after another substantiated by a wish

We rain words around

Our actions don’t match our words

Our thoughts don’t match this reality

Our hearts beat together

Now we know why I love you is just a group of eight letters

We lived in lust, we played, delayed

When love was absent and betrayed

We found a plan, in love’s great dome

And loved to lose our love in Rome.

One day, or two, a life or so

We never choose, we let it flow

It’s love we love and always will

Forever slaves to love’s free wheel.

We spare each other pain and gain

We put out love without restraint

We go a life, or two, or three

To feel inside we are so free!

There’s one, or two, or three of us

Who love, adore and always trust

We always dream and love together

And build our own divine forever.

January 22, 2016

Rome