Numbness is not a fiction
It happened to me.
And it was the worst. The worst feeling ever. It’s vacant. Empty. Cant feel nothing. No emotion at all.
That was hell for me.
And I tried COUNTLESS effort just to know how does it feel to have emotion back.
I tried movies.
I tried praying.
I tried loving.
Mostly though, I hurt myself.
Cutting, burning, peeling, smashing into things.
It hurt me sure, it made me sad yes. That’s why I do it.
Every tears rolling down my cheek is a sign that I succeed. And it is addicting.
I guess that is why now I am more sad.
But God forbids, I dont want to feel numb again.
But now numb sounds terribly tempting.