Honestly starting to find myself at a loss

How does one go from having so much confidence and optimism to feeling so lost that it scares you inside?

I’m at a loss. I feel like i’m losing in the game of life. Its as if I don’t feel anything. I’m missing that passion in life, that thing that used to drive me to smile and be optimistic. Now a days it just feels forced. I wouldn’t say that I’m unhappy, but I wouldn’t say that I’m happy either. I guess I’m just missing something that makes me passionate or makes me feel something.

It sucks when you feel like something is missing, but you can’t pinpoint what and constantly have that worry in your head about it.

Maybe this has to do with growing up? We start to feel distant and not feel like who we once were. That free-spirited, fun-loving and always optimistic person we used to be just. . . grows up. I guess I just miss the times where there was something to look forward to everyday, something to plan for or whatever. Now it just seems that I’m getting lost in life and don’t have a real direction.

I guess an optimistic person can only stay so optimistic for so long, sooner or later they crack. But then would that person have been considered optimistic to begin with?