Ignore the outside world and look within? Really?

I have been thinking a lot lately around how we can best and transform ourselves to enable a true shift in the spiritual and physical realm. Not just on a small scale yet a large. We all have some idea that there is inner work to be done when presenting yourself to the world, as though it’s your duty to show up in your best skin to shine your light on those around you. We all know how interesting this road can be, to find this balance of fighting yourself, loving yourself and fighting yourself again, or maybe you got it sorted.Please let me know, because I am not quite there yet. There seems to be a common pattern happening lately, a trend and a spike in so called awareness of what we are all in and what is happening around us. As I sit here on my comfy little sofa, (actually it’s not even mine) I think, wtf am I doing, am I really making a difference by following my game changing idea and dreams (through my eyes anyway). Or am I just ignoring the fact that the world is crumbling around me and I am sitting here, like many others, sipping a warm drink as we mossy along our day. “Wake the fuck up” I hear, screaming beside my mind, but nothing seems to erupt in me, my emotions too still to realise what’s going on in the outside world. See from my eyes we are all pretty selfish, but let’s be a little clear here. WE HAVE TO BE RIGHT? no really, we have to be? please tell me we do. See I like many, build our egos up on things we think are great, but are they? or are they just really great tool to escape the real world and stop us helping out. Fuck me, I know I run when I hear a homeless dude speaking to himself. Well maybe not run, but there is a hint of ignorance there. Something goes in my head “he’s gone, not worth helping” and “it’s just one crazy dude”.

See here is my question, do we focus on maintaining our own composure and conquer and align our dreams with others? Or do we drop it all to go help the refugees in Greece? Let’s be honest here, me like many others have been ignoring this. What can you trust these days I say. But it’s fucking really happening. Because it’s not on my door step I just shrug my shoulders and let it pass like another thought not worth keeping. WTF where is the empathy, why am I not dropping my bags to go support, help, give, serve? I don’t know yet. Empathy lacks in our generation, their calling us ‘Millenials’, oh fuck another label to through on us. Owel, all is well.

So really, I know some of you get this right? How much do we ignore and how much do we take in. As the world starts to get a little more shaky by the minute and the safe space gets eaten up, are we slowly starting to drift away from the pain that has been created from the past, or are we ignoring it?. What are we going to do. Do we hope that our dream idea of saving, changing or at least putting a small positive dint in the world is going to help? Or do we drop our bags and life and go help all these negative real life situations?

No one seems to be taking the stance? Governments are confused, conspiracies like fear drifting through the wind come and go and positivity in your head is the hardest thing to maintain while it’s all going on. Meditation, healthy food, shelter and all the good stuff, but where do we concentrate our efforts on. I personally feel paralyzed. I really just want to fucking ignore it all, but something insides me has empathy, for the world, for humanity, it just feels so fucking big.

So I can already here the replies…” Follow your heart”, “trust”, “it’s love you need to find” and all that, even I say it. But really is this the road to truly helping and waking up the world? It seems naughty? or ignorant to just ignore it and look within.

I know I am only one man, with one idea. Why I am stuck with it. It lies within me and you, but we are so fucked up in this human condition, it may never come out. “Na fuck that” as my heart races. Please will someone come rip it out of me? this idea, this potential world changing idea.

Is it time to sacrifice yourself for the sakes of others. I don’t know what this looks like, but if it’s self harm, stress, hard work, then why would I do that? There must be a better way. Do I not have the right to enjoy my life and support the transition and change as we go? Is it mine and others inability to trust others and collaborate with others that is stopping me from changing the world? Fuck. Stuck in our own fear we will never know.

Please all mighty realm of possibilities, bliss, god and universe, please give me and others the strength and atlas half the key to the key code of the door of change. Or should I just sit back and watch netflix?

I will let you know how this human condition goes. Ciao for now. Love

Dean