At this moment I am far above the trees
Floating, blowing with the winds
Gently rolling, swirling gloriously free
My body is weightless
My mind is open
Sun rays on my skin feel like embraces
Warm and welcoming
At this moment I am thrown by a gust
A sudden shift and fierce blow
Violently I am tossed, thrown higher than ever
Jerking and snapping, twisting in fear
My body is crippled
My mind is flooded
With questions no one can or will answer
Dismay and trepidation.
At this moment I plummet down to earth
Falling from nowhere but high up and hopeful
Quickly I draw in a full breath
My body is rigid
My mind is racing
Everything is below me
Seeing my fall
Bearing witness to my descent from nothing to madness
At this moment I birth two flames
From some womb inside me I never knew existed
I feel them scorching and scarring my skin
Searing pain untamed by the air as I fall even faster
They break apart, these floating flames
They become two
I am now half what I was or what I ever could be
One flame consumes me as I drop
This flame goes deep within me
It fuses into my whole being
The other dances away on the wind that swept me and dropped me
With no farewell at all
Its embers fade and the light goes dark in the distance
I can’t remember what it is I meant to forget
Confusion is all I know
At this moment I am on the ground
Staring up at what was, what is and seeing.
Seeing that Everything remains.
Grateful and beholden
I’m nearly whole, nearly unscalded
Marked by blisters and scars that are fading from wounds to memories
Turning my flesh I into a yet unfinished autobiography
At this moment, Everything is still
Still here. Still present.
Still winds and still waters make it possible for me to hear
A still mind and for one brief moment, quieted thoughts, muted pleas.
I’ve fallen completely.
And still I have Everything.