I am a Surgeon
I am a Surgeon.
I invest hours, day’s months and years into serving you.
I have paid back hundreds of thousands of dollars in loans.
My family suffers. I never see my kids grow up. I often work 24hrs and never see them go to bed.
I have been spat at. I have been verbally abused, but still I strive to stop the pain you are suffering.
I am the deliverer of good news. I am also the deliverer of bad news. I tell young mothers that they have months to live in front of her children.
I think of my own children. How would I cope?
I am in awe of my patients who accept death. My heart tears for those that cannot.
Sometimes I wish I could take the cancer away. I often take it home and curl up and cry and ask the world why?!
I have cried 1000 tears in the dark. I don’t want people to share my pain.
I enjoy the press of the scalpel against the skin and using it to ‘do good’. Removing ‘the enemy’ feels like a small victory sometimes.
I am rarely congratulated, but go about my work without fuss.
Sometimes I am told that I am terrible at my job by my peers. I take this criticism and know it is to be used for good.
I learn about the patients, myself and my limitations every day.
When I take off my scrubs after an 18 hour day I go home to become human again.
The alarm clock goes off way too soon.
Why do I do it?
It’s my service to you.
When you see me next, know that I am human, but;
I am also a Surgeon
Insights provided by a General Surgeon
Written by Ryan Burnett