I’m going through this right now. I know it definitely feels that way. I can’t speak for you because I don’t know your story, but I recently went on a date with a pretty great girl. We talked on the phone for about two weeks before meeting up. I never thought it would happen but she looked at me the same way my ex used to, I’m sure you know the look. So it’s not love, not in the same way, but it gave me hope. Hang in there, and definitely keep writing; it helps!