The thing I hate most about making stuff.
When finishing something, instead of seeing one finished product I see a bunch of inspirations. Components. Ideas. It’s tough for me to remove the process from what is.
Like Instead of seeing a cake you see eggs, a can of frosting and whatever else is in a cake. I don’t bake.
Peeling the layers of a story to see the process was always a fun thing. Watching Star Wars was more interesting when I learned about the World War II symbolism. The Matrix was better the second time around after learning more about different philosophies and religions they included.
With my own stuff, it’s just looking at a bunch of ingredients and I don’t know how they’re going to be perceived. As an editor, I see the final cut with its limitations. The shots I wanted to include but didn’t have. The line that was altered to make it sound like what it is.
Creating stuff puts you under the hood and takes away all of the magic of why something works. Making a rabbit disappear is cool to see, but a magician sees steps and how smoothly they’re implemented.
They create for the reaction not for the act. Everything is based on how it’ll be received. And that’s why magic works. It’s supposed to do something and it’s judged by how well it’s done. And sure we want to know, but we don’t.
With music or any art they say create for yourself. And the second you do, people start ripping it apart checking for any references or direct inspirations. What’s an homage versus an outright ripoff.
The difference with magic and music or film or anything else is, it’s not supposed to be something. Music isn’t supposed to be one way. There’s no one way to write. There’s rules, but they’re broken all of the time.
So I bake a cake. Look at it, and only see the eggs and frosting. They see a cake, until they rip it apart to find the eggs and frosting (and whatever else).
I just want cake.