I thought You Loved Me
I thought you loved me.
I thought you wanted the best for me.
I thought you wanted to protect me.
I thought I could trust you.
But you swallowed me whole.
You consumed my mind
and left me abandoned
with nothing but a shell
of a lifeless body behind.
I thought I could trust you
when you told me I was fine.
Little did I know you were the one
that created my chaotic mess of a mind.
I thought you wanted the best for me,
so I stood and did nothing
as you forced me into confinement.
you made me think that
I was nothing but a bystander
to the thing that was my life.
I was locked in a personal prison.
I was told to shut everyone out
I thought I could believe you
when you told me to forget,
forget the life you had stolen from me.
You pierced my porcelain heart
with shards of shattered glass.
You dissected me piece by piece
until I was no more.
Slowly I realize,
I realize I need to escape
from my personal prison.
I need to be more,
more than just a bystander
in the thing I call my life.
Insecurities had haunted my happiness
for too many years now.
I finally start to shut you out.
Sometimes I still think you love me.
That you want the best for me.
That you want to protect me.
Sometimes I feel like I can trust you,
but you fill my mind with poison.
So I clutch onto my life,
and force myself to push you out
because I know
that you’ve done me no good,
even though my mind,
truly thought you loved me.