Thank you so very much for your kind and thoughtful comment. I am so glad that my writing can reach someone out there, and that we can collectively share our experiences.
Oh gosh, I am a rapid cycler too — isn’t it just exhausting as hell?? But yes — definitely, definitive preferable to depression. Oh god anything but that right…
I too will spend all my money and be up for days high as hell. Some twisted part of me loves it — but who doesn’t like to feel that good? It’s just the rational part of our brains trying to say, “Uh listen, no one is supposed to feel this good, this is not safe.”
It is not easy to try and trust someone initially, it’s definitely risky. But I am glad you are trying to! The way I see it is like my mother says to me: “You have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince.” Haha so corny but I love it because it’s true. By trusting, yeah we’re gonna kiss some frogs, but a Prince/Princess is out there for every single one of us!
Nice seeing you on here again, hope to see you again very soon :)