Jessica, I love this post. While you might think you don’t have it together, you probably have it more together than most people do.
You may not have a status (visa-wise), money, a corporation, babies, or even your health but you do have one thing most people don’t.
Wealth and status can’t buy it.
I think the more you have it together, the farther away you live from it.
Many people may have found their place in the world but they haven’t found the place within themselves.
For example, I thought I had it together five years ago. I was a practicing lawyer with my own practice, a wife, a house, 2 cars and our dreams. Soon after it all vanished and evaporated.
Some things left by themselves. Some things I let go of.
I just woke up one day and realized, “wtf, I don’t have it together…” All those things I wanted weren’t really what I wanted at all. I was living what other people wanted. I thought about it more. What !?! If I’m not living my truth, what am I living?
Lies feel comfortable, safe, secure, picturesque. Lies show up on Christmas cards, diplomas on walls, birthday party invites, Faccebook posts and telling other people what you do at dinner party conversations. Lies are being busy, looking busy, telling people you’re busy.
Lies are when you say, “I’m doing great.” “I’m good” “Couldn’t be better”….when you’re not.
All of it seems like what you’re supposed to do but if it’s not what you’re supposed to do, it’s a lie.
You’re not an artist because of your art. Well, you are. You’re really and artist because of your truth.
Living your truth is heroic.
Writing your truth is heroic.