Burden to Bare

lost my faith in faith
lost the plot that was written for me
i succumb to my broken desires
they force me deeper down this hole
i spread my conviction on your sheets
spread myself so thin i disappear

crossing the line 
between crosses
i feel redeemed 
from redemption 
sold my soul 
and bought it back
at a bargain
did i win?

burden too heavy to bare 
myself to the world 
that has grown old and tired
and yearns to be rid
of a plague that plagues endlessly 
i cant do this any more

free me from myself 
i served enough time
inside the prison of my mind 
buried dead or alive
silence is not solitude