I understand your pain, partly. Such a sad piece, but thank you for writing.
My niece ( currently 3 years old, my only niece) is one month into chemo, after we discovered she has Acute Myeloid Lukemia.
It’s very hard. I have pondered the outcome. Though different, I get this.
I have written a few things, that I am finding difficult to post. Mainly because it makes it real.
I can’t imagine how hard it was.
I feel you.