Xavier
Xavier
Jul 24, 2017 · 1 min read

I used to smoke weed like 17 years ago, at the beginning it was all fun and it stayed like that for a while. Then my mind and habits started to change, I started to change as a person. I discovered a whole new world, it opened my mind to a whole new “understanding of life” and everything was good. But then I think I smoked too much everyday and that’s when everything fell apart. Started feeling anxious and lots of paranoia, and it started to happen even without smoking. Because my state of mind went crazy I still have some issues to this day and some real good friends in the way because of my bad judgement. I really miss sometimes the nice high everyone gets. Started doing meditation a few years ago and it has helped me a lot. Found out that when I could actually enter a deep state of meditation it can beat any drug and without any side effects.

Don’t know what exactly happened or triggered my anxiety, could be the amount of weed or my personal relationships at home, maybe both combined, who knows but I can’t smoke weed anymore. Which makes me believe that it’s just not for everybody, and trying to keep smoking when you know it has an unpleasant effect on you is just nonsense, simply put stop, life is much better when you feel good and don’t try to force things.

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