Lesson: a useful piece of practical wisdom acquired by experience or study

So here is my beautiful enterprise ready to go. Now I just have to make it a reality. Mmmm, easier said than done, especially when I’m pushing like a crazy person and expecting things to happen in my time.

Lesson One: there’s no such thing as ‘my time’ when it comes to getting things to happen on cue.

There seems to be another force at play and not one I have control over. Prior to bankruptcy being an actual reality, I was on a tightrope trying to keep my balance. I knew I was going to go either way and tried desperately to fall on the side of success and largesse. With that being my end game — and why not — I was in a perpetual state of stress screaming, begging, pleading with the universe to get the enterprise off the ground before I hit it. Which I did. Hard. No amount of entreaty was going to save my arse. Lesson learnt.

Lesson Two: When all else fails, be gentle with yourself and look at your achievements with some grace.

All else did fail and in retrospect I was setting myself up for that fall. Already on the tightrope it was only a matter of time for the push. When it happened I found it difficult at first to be kind to myself. It was actually easy to get down and blame myself for my shortcomings and my disastrous decision making. Guess what? Blaming doesn’t change a thing except your own state of being — from bad to worse. So I set about looking within and dragging some good out of it all. I listed my achievements thus far; each and every one of them from the smallest action to the biggest coup, just to get some perspective. It worked.

Lesson Three: If it really means something to you get up, brush yourself off and keep going.

With no other option than to follow my heart — and believe me I have no other option — this lesson has been the easiest to come to terms with. I am going forward by believing in myself and what I’m doing. I found out that I can still have a business if I’m a bankrupt so my dream is still alive and burning bright. Now I just have to adjust to my new situation and allow only good loving thoughts into my mind.

The next step on my deliberate journey…