Let the King of my heart, Be the mountain where I run, The fountain I drink from Oh, He is my song.
These last few weeks have felt like I have been marooned at the proverbial DMV. And I think we all know that the DMV is quite literally the slowest place on earth. Now take that feeling of dread you have when it is time to renew the license and apply it to life. But in this circumstance everything is murky with no door to walk out of, but only to wait, patiently. Wait patiently for my number to be called to begin to gain a sense of what is in store.
Wait patiently: a wisecrack filled with sarcasm; or a cruel, cruel joke. (Zach’s dictionary)
Allow me to be quite frank; having to wait, especially when it comes to matters of life is infuriating, stupid, crazy, and downright the pits. However, it is not supposed to be viewed that way or even thought of that way. And well, I decided to throw myself a pity party because I was done with waiting and thought I did not need or deserve to wait any longer!
If these posts prove anything, they prove that I am an ignorant, stubborn man. Full of self-righteousness and self-sufficiency. So as always let us turn to a humbling source of righteousness: scripture. God breathed, and used for the edification and admonishment of His children.
I have been attempting to read through the Psalms: 1. To just check them out 2. To learn more of who God is. As I have been struggling through waiting, and attempting to be patient in that, I have come across some different Psalms that deal with waiting, or at least speak to it. While I chose to ignore them and what they had to say at first, because I did not like what they had to say, and well I was getting frustrated within this waiting process.
“Lead me in your truth and teach me, for you are the God of my salvation; for you I wait all the day long.” — Psalm 25:5
“And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in you.” — Psalm 39:7
During most of this waiting time I have not been thankful and created this selfishness that cries out “woe is me!” I have taken all this personally and decided to forgo the fact that well, God is sovereign. I repeat: God is sovereign! I must begin to rest that in His omnipotence, He has a reason for me waiting. Even if it is a reason that I shall never know or understand. And in that I must delight and find rest, which is hard for even the most seasoned veteran, of which I am not. The sovereign God of the entire universe cares so much for me that I must wait. With no reason or explanation, other than the fact that He loves me.
So as this revelation has come about; it was time for me to be thankful for the fact that I need God, and He was gracious enough to reconcile me to Him. As stated in the Psalms above, my hope and salvation is in Christ alone. While the waiting seems bleak, or even unnecessary in my finite lens of life it is ok. Whatever comes my way is ok because of the most unshakable foundation and truth that could ever be is here with me. Here in my worry. Here in my fear. Here in my waiting. He is here.
“Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!” — Psalm 27:14
“Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the Lord!” — Psalm 31:24
Remember the previous Psalms as God is our salvation and hope. This alone is what allows us to be strong and our hearts to take courage. As we begin to rest and find our refuge in the mount of The Lord, this is when we can be strong and take courage. Never before then and never on our own. It is impossible. We are too cowardly and weak; the literal opposite of what it is God is commanding us to do as we wait on the Lord.
We should do this by becoming unhindered from the fears of life. Let your heart take courage! Let our hearts be filled in the fullness of Christ. We want and try to prevent ourselves from taking courage. And we do this by trying to fill the insatiable appetite of ourself with the dissatisfying and fleeting pleasures of the world, instead of tasting and seeing that the Lord is good! It is madness when we realize how much we attempt to do to fill the void on our own, when all we need is a simple taste of the goodness of God. This taste is what draws us to Him. It is sweeter than honey, and more fulfilling than the greatest feast. Through this we begin to glimpse the love that He has for us.
“O my God, I cry by day, but you do not answer, and by night, but I find no rest. Yet you are holy, enthroned on the praises of Israel.” — Psalm 22:2&3
To summarize I think we would all to well to remember Psalm 22:2&3. David has understood and so simply puts: YOU ARE HOLY. We stamp our feet and demand so much from God, much less cry out to Him with pure intentions in our hearts and the desire to know Him more. In his waiting and uncertainty of life David still found it vital to worship God and remind himself that God is holy. Enthroned above all else! As we wait are we throwing ourselves a pity party, or are we seeking the Lord diligently. Seeking to know God just to know Him and no other motives?