Please, please read The Gift Of Fear by Gavin De Becker. It helped me learn to trust my own intuition more. One of the most important and eye-opening things to be learned from this book is “Men who cannot let go choose women who cannot say no.”
Wishing you much smoother sailing ahead where you realize and internalize that not everyone deserves the light of your “superhuman capacity for love and compassion”. Please try and save some of that love and compassion for yourself because you are worth it too!