it’s the OG sad boy
This world is terribly wicked & my disney bubble protected me from that reality for a really long time. Having a veil to preserve your innocence for as long as possible is never a bad thing. I think to an extent, I’m still sheltered from the harsh realities of life but i’ll tell you who isn’t sheltered… sad boys.
“take a pill and go to sleep…” “…when i’m afraid i lose my mind” “…left all my sanity…”
Imagine having a heightened sense of reality — being aware at a young age that life is awful — being robbed of your ability to imagine without the constraints of reality (sounds awful). When i started writing this piece, i thought sad boys were people who had everything but somehow end up mediocre but based on the twenty minute research i did. i think they’re just too aware of life, there’s no sugar coating it with them. The sad boy says “It’ll be nice to be a professional basketballer” but he knows the stats and how impossible it is to achieve that.
To an extent, i’m a sad boy because even though they are aware that “death is inevitable” and “so long as there’s love, there can be betrayal”, they still choose to live & love — they have such big feelings. Being incredibly aware of the inhumanity of man makes them aware of all their own shortcomings as well…. and so they beat themselves up about the seemingly cruel things they do.
“i lived a thousand lives but i’m still searchin”
“you saw my face but i’m so numb” “yeah, i got a knife, I don’t wanna use it tonight”
I don’t know what i’m writing but i know what i want to say and i do hope that i’m saying it. This piece is heavily inspired by Kendall Roy — remove the billionaire status of it all — i imagine him as a kid in dark clothes who feels like they’re carrying the weight of the world on their shoulders.
even when they’re happy, there’s an undertone of sadness. It’s extremely depressing & it’s one of the reasons i stopped watching movies about sad boys — they are triggering.
I’m thinking of how incredibly content yet insatiable they are. How does that even work? You want more, wayyyy more but you’re comfortable, satisfied even. They’re realists but that doesn’t stop them from hoping for things or building castles in the sky and they’re constantly having conversations in their mind about whether it’s doable or not so next time you meet a sad boy, be open and sensitive, they most likely have an unorthodox perspective on life.
pS — NBODY pulls off the “sad boy” look better than japanese cartoons and white boys
