12 Things I Should Say To Her

Hey Cee,

1. If my past is any indication of your future, the smart thing to do would be to walk away and that would be okay, but you’re choosing to stay. You’re proof that God loves me.
2. You’re light when all I see is darkness and if I fall apart you know where to find my pieces.
3. You’re terrifying and beautiful at the same time, sometimes more terrifying than beautiful. You’re not for everybody to love and that’s okay.
4. Telepathy is too rare to be expected,please talk to me about what upsets you. Help me make you feel better.
5. Even at times when it feels like I’m doing the exact opposite, I’m never out to catch you in the wrong. Your imperfection is part of your humanity, and as with the better parts of you, I accept them.
6. You’re a better person than I am and I trust you completely.
7. With you, I’m shamelessly vulnerable.
8. You’re hope for permanent joys in the face of temporary unhappiness.
9. I live for the late night conversations, inside jokes and loud laughter.
10. Tell the truth about the sex, kisses and the food. You don’t have to live through what isn’t good.
11. Rather than say anything mean to you, no matter how upset I get, I’d plug my ears and crank up the music. Please stop tugging at my earphone wires, they might snap.
12. I’m ready to start eating my vegetables. Everything except broccoli, celery, green peas, spring onions, bitter-leaf that has only been fairly washed, and utazi.

I loved you once, I loved you twice, I love you more than beans and rice.