Your ‘welcome home’ banner

This whole thing that you do the way you make me feel when you open your arms to hug me; as if you’re welcoming me home, as if you’re the piece to complete me, as if you’re the answer to why I’ve been feeling so incomplete. But it’s all so deceiving. Your whole welcome home banner is all so deceiving and the biggest problem is that I don’t know how to not be deceived by this. I don’t know what it is about you that makes me feel so homesick. And I know I am not allowed to, moreso forbidden to, because it feels like I am betraying myself like I’m burning down my walls like I’m demolishing my own empire but I can’t and there is no explanation for this all I know is that I miss you and I want it to stop.