A dam wants to break

Sitting in silence. My breathing becomes deeper and deeper.

I try to let go more and more. Like sinking deeper into the ocean. The waves get further away.

And then I feel a resistance in my chest. Like breathing against a wall, a dam.

A slight feeling of tears comes up. At first I try to let go by “force”. It never works. So I looked into the dam. And it softened a little.

Something wants to break free.

I am scared and curious at the same time.