Alaina LaTourette
Sep 9, 2018 · 2 min read

David, I am glad you are here to share your story with us and sorry you had to be subject to the trifecta of abuse: sexual, physical and psychological. You owe no apologies or explanations of why you react as you do to touch or intimacy; I understand your need for explanation, the “this is why I am this way.” I am also sorry for the lack of kindness, compassion, and respect you have experienced in the times you seek understanding and support.

I have a desire to rationale why it is so hard for many to accept that women can be sexually, physically and psychologically abusive to their children…but sickness doesn’t discriminate and there is no rationale.

It amazes me, this disconnect many have between having a baby and the reality of bringing another human person into the world; the carelessness in which this decision is often made shows a lack of understanding of the depth of your responsibility: to keep this small being safe, to love and nurture and teach it how to be human; until it has the capacity to keep itself safe and become a contributing member of society.

Having a trusted adult abuse you instead of protecting you and keeping you safe is like a horror movie scene where the antagonist gets to the safe haven only to find it is filled with zombies and then you wake up from that nightmare into another nightmare; only it's your real life.

You are not alone; there are many of us out here.

I am also a parent and a survivor; the trifecta.

    Alaina LaTourette

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    Mother, grandmother, lover, survivor, fighter and child of Synanon.