I’m scared I’m falling in love with you. I am a hopeless romantic who hopes for the perfect person to come sweep me off my feet. But alas they don’t exist.

When I first met you I had no expectations or preparation for the turmoil my heart has to endure. I never knew how hard I would fall for you. In a matter of days I was falling faster and faster. Soon I could see myself flying across atmospheres and galaxies when I looked into your eyes only to find myself suffocating in cold, dark space. I came crashing down to Earth. The impact, deadly. My heart wounded and torn as the reality of the situation soon becomes clear.

I don’t know if you still have feelings for your EX. And although I said I will try to be open about the sitution, the truth of the matter is I am jealous. I am jealous of how strong your relationship with him is. And I am scared that I will never be on par with him.

There are moments of clarity and hope where I pick myself up and continue again. But it only takes a sentence to remind me of your connection with him.

I put so much heart on the line. I care fiercely. But I recieve nothing in return. And I am trying to make this work, but I am growing tired.

I’m scared the more I care, the more I will fall in love. And I am afraid that if and when we part I am the one left broken hearted.