I’m disappearing on the inside& my biggest fear is being forgotten. Encounters,friendships&family I cherish.My self&soul are in my writings, proof that I exist.
I was not good…
To the caramel eyed boy I once knew.
I have missed you throughout my life. But I understand the reasons.
I was not good for you.
There were moments where you have weaved in and out.
or slip to the floor.
my eyes no longer show a me because I am now only deep inside.
I am a crash test dummy and it is the loneliest place I inhabit.
I hate that you hate me,
The sighs and eye rolls
I hate that you have apathy,
For things beyond my control.
I hate that I bring you distress,
In cases of you being the first response.