I give up.I let go all of my expectations and now I am flying like in Birdman’s finale scene.When you have hopes and expectetions about future you are always trying to be better and better everyday.But here is the key point; you are not getting any better. Because nearly all of your expectitions is about things that you have, not directly you.You are trying to upgrade your objects not yourself.Definetly you should have a purpose to live.You should try to do something good but it must be for YOURSELF.It shouldnt be for the things you own.Those are materials you can measure all o things with money so they are useless.They are not open for improving.Please be aware of your actual needs and try to supply them.Improve yourself with producing not consuming. The Happiest Nihilist