Feeling Lost and Finding Answers

Every morning I wake up with a sensation that I need to do something to change my life. But, I don’t know where to start to do so. I want to change jobs, that I know. My job isn’t bad, but I get no satisfacation from it, no one tells you “good job” or that I feel like I am making a difference in the world. Heck, I supervise people that sell groceries and I worry about metrics that in all honesty do nothing to improve the experience of the customer. Maybe I am just negative or have been doing it for too long, but I can’t stand the job. It literally takes every fiber of my being not to go off on people some days.

But then I look at job postings on LinkedIn and literally every job sounds like the absolute worst. I don’t want to go do some mundane work for another company. I don’t want to be just a number on a spreadsheet or be employee XXX00073. I want to be myself in a job. I don’t want to have to impress anyone but myself. I need something that will let my creativity flow, engage interesting issues, and feel like I am doing something that could have an effect on those around me and in the world.

I don’t think these are naive wants. When I went to school I didn’t choose a major to make money, I choose a major that would bring me happiness in a field that I am interested in. PoliSci was a great major, I learned a lot of interesting things about the world. I have no regrets that I went to school for it. I just need to find a way to capitalize on it. Recently, my friend and I have been discussing creating a YouTube channel where we engage in conversation. I really think this will be a good creative outlet for me and for a way to grow my voice in matters that matter to me. I am very politically motivated, but I am always shy to share those feelings I have to others. I really need to get over that and I hope to do so.

Ultimately, I think that I need to create my own path to success. I don’t think I will find it by being hired by someone and doing their work for them. I just don’t think that is the natural path to success. I hope to begin this journey soon. I guess I have a brand to create, and finally a life to begin.

Writes about politics, travel, and other stuff.

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