subconscious voice? pt9 journling

the only editing is the spelling the rest is unedited flow journaling

Today im not sure what to write, I feel tired but the thing is I feel tired all the time. Not just physically but mentally too. So far ive only been to the gym so if anything I would usually feel alert by now. Mentally I feel as if ive been studying for hours on end and my head is about to explode but the thing is I haven’t. I haven’t done anything which requires much mental focus in the past two days.

Im wondering if this journaling is helping me at all, this will be 9 straight days so far, committing to it is easier than I thought, 20 minutes day. If I couldn’t commit to that then I would have some serious problems, especially since I haven’t really done a lot else in the last 9 days. 
Its takes 21 days to change a habit, that is likely to vary person to person so my main milestone if you like is to get to 30 days of journaling. Ive been thinking what am I actually suppose to write when journaling, the aim for me was to let my inner voice have a kind of free flow, a chance to write. But I have been finding that bit difficult as I think about topics or my opinion as things to talk about, which is not the main purpose of the this.

I guess im also trying to figure out if its my conscious or subconscious talking, who is talking right now? Wouldn’t it be easier if there were two different voices to distinguish? But then I guess its not suppose to be that easy, your subconscious is your subconscious for a reason. If we could all easily tap into it I think we would be leading very different lives.

So I guess the question is why don’t we tap into it? Its probably hard and lot of people arel not be willing to put the effort into without knowing what they can achieve by doing it. Then ‘life’ throws so many spanners in the works that creates all these distractions from what’s actually important in life.

I guess there are a few people who have tapped into their subconscious, they have no reason to shout about it as its something people need to search from within, only then they will know what they need to do.