Uncaged

I’m tired of communicating with an agenda…

I’m tired.

Not physically tired, really. Emotionally tired. If I was physically tired, I’d know the culprit. Lack of sleep. Overworking. Stress. Sometimes emotional fatigue is more difficult to place. But I think I’ve found the problem.

I’ve been really selfish.

It’s easy to notice ways we feel people have wronged us. Maybe not even wronged us, but just irritated us. Tonight, I sat down and really thought about this. And I have one question…

WHO CARES?!

When did it become the rest of the world’s primary objective to make me happy? When did I start to expect that the rest of the world should cater to me so I would never be irritated? News flash: it isn’t and, whenever I did, it needs to stop.

Meetings, pitches, proposals — I’m constantly communicating with an agenda. Trying to get someone to do something for me.

When was the last time I communicated with no agenda?

Honestly, I feel a weight falling off my shoulders just writing this down. This is a dangerous time to write. I’m smack dab in the middle of this emotional fatigue and renewal. I’m processing through writing.

It may be dangerous, but it’s so good.

I want to get back to relationships. To meaningful conversations and deep thoughts. I don’t want to see people as conduits for my gain. I want to see them as the beautiful human beings they are. As my colleagues, my peers and my friends.

I’ve been in a rut lately, but I feel like I’m coming out of it. If you have felt the same way, I invite you to join me. Lose the selfishness. Serve those around you and add value to their lives.

Break out of the cage.