Your pain is valid.
I would like to say I understand what your going through right now, but I can’t. Honestly, you may not even know how to make sense of it yourself. on the best days, it feels like some sort of sadistic dream. Something you remember in full detail, yet it feels like it didn’t really happen to you. On your worse, you can’t find the words or the methods to express every dark emotion dwelling within you. Maybe that looks like you can’t get out of your bed. Maybe it looks like you sit alone and shut everyone else out. Maybe it looks like you put on a face and pretend that everything in your life is fine-when its anything but fine.
The deep rooted pain is all you know. You try to find methods of escape, but at best they serve as distraction, and when your back to the world you live in, it doesn’t feel the same anymore. It feels distorted, like you don’t belong and your the misfit.
But you don’t want to say a word to anyone about. Not really.
There are times you think about it. The days you wish someone would ask you, not because you want to relieve it, but cause you are hurting and broke and want someone to be there. The someone that would help you heal. But you bite your tongue until it bleeds. Because you tell yourself “you should be grateful, others have it worse.”You don’t want to make a mountain out of a molehill.You don’t want to bring up your pain that feels so little when compared to what others are possibly going through. And so you struggle with it, alone.
I’m here to tell you, your pain is valid. Your suffering is worth consolation. Your brokenness does not translate to your worthlessness.
You are human. You are alive. You are resilient and brave, even if you don’t believe this yourself. The fact your here right now counts for something. You went through something terrible and you came out the other side alive. Maybe shaken or even shattered but you are here. You shouldn’t feel as though your pain is worth nothing simple because you know other stories that seem worse by comparison. This is not a battlefield and there should be no “Trauma Olympics” where only the worst suffering is documented, consoled and helped to heal. You are important. You are loved.
Your pain is valid.
But if you are under the impression that you deserve less and believe your pain is not valid enough on a scale to warrant attention then I want you know that if your broke, suffering or hurting then your pain is valid and its okay to feel that way. Take your time to heal and move forward. Maybe that means you write it out or run to your family or friends and tell them your struggling. Maybe it means going to see a therapist . Maybe that means praying. Maybe it means to go out to people and offer your own hand.
Whatever it means for you to move forward, heal, process and feel whole again, you are allowed to do it.
Don’t believe that your a burden to others. Don’t be afraid that you might get the response you were looking for when your unraveling through your burden. The people that do truly love you will be there for you even if the weight of your struggle is crushing them.
I can’t tell you. I understand your pain. I can’t promise to do the all the right things to fix it. But I can offer my shoulder, my ears, my open arms if you need them or want them. Maybe you don’t want them today, and thats okay too. Because you are worth it. You are loved. You are not a burden and most certainly your pain is not your fault.
Your pain is valid. Don’t let the world tell you anything different.
A Girl’s Journal x
I’m over at a https://girlsjournal95.blogspot.co.uk