His number

I remember the first time Love called me I stared at the phone because I didn’t know who it was. This is a common practice of mine. Sometimes I do it even when I know who it is. Pathetic.

Anyway, I had given Him my number through e-mail — my “business number” — and wasn’t sure if He would actually call me.

His area code threw me for a loop. 541? Albany, Oregon? I didn’t know anyone in Oregon or from Oregon. Wait. Yes, I did. He had told me, of course.

He left a message stating His name, and asking me to return His call. And that’s how we got started several years ago…got re-started.

“Give me jingle.” Who says that?

My business number is a number I give to businesses, obviously, but also to men and other people that I may not trust or actually desire to speak to. It’s not that I didn’t trust Him. I didn’t know Him that well. I didn’t really know Him at all — just a little something-something at work. I actually gave Him that number because I was giving through it through my work e-mail from a job from which I had been fired.

I gave Him a nickname in my contact list, as I do with everyone. (When I die one day, someone is going to have a hell of a time trying to contact folks because 99% of my contacts are “code names.”) Usually, people’s code names are related to something about them; but I had a really hard time coming up with one for Him for some reason. First it was “Bob.” Not creative at all. And also Bob was my landlord so sometimes, I would get confused. Last summer, I changed it to “Fixit”…because that became His role in my life.

Fixit still comes up at the forefront of my phone list when I make a call. It used to be number one for a long time. Now it is number four. I guess it represents how many times I was once in contact with Him. Even my phone can’t get over Him. More recently, I wondered if I should just delete His number. I don’t know if I can.

Also, I have wanted so badly to call His number, just to see what would happen. Will I get His voicemail…8 months later? Doubtful. Does it belong to someone else? Does someone in His family now use it?

At least I do have His voice captured though. I actually have that very first voicemail that He left me…

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The following stories are linked in the one above. It helps me to know where I’ve been and where I’m going.