Nothing Left To Say

I have nothing left to say

to the people who like me

I have nothing left to say

to people who despise me

I have nothing left to say

to people who can’t decide

I have nothing left to say

to those who look up to me for help

and unknowingly

i fail

I have nothing left to say

to those who stick

with me

till i am not fallen

from my feet

I have nothing left to say

to the system i hated

I have nothing left to say

to myself

as i became the same system’s part

I have nothing left to say

to the awardee

who had to announce her award

as mine

i had told her a night before

that she deserved it

more than me

I have nothing left to say

except a blue Lays packet

I have nothing left to say

to those who ask me

why i went away

and they mistake my reasons for grudges

not realising

that i have lost the faith

that bound me

to the fraternity

like a needle

but i am bleeding

too much

from my back

to look for it

in the haystack

I have nothing left to say

to my father

who still wonders

why five years

were not enough to remove blindfolds

from the eyes of people

and

why i didn’t do the same

to whisper sweet lies

and keep their eyes shut

I have nothing left to say to you

except this

i am somehow still writing

trying now to accept change is a wheel

not that it takes a revolution to happen

but sometimes it crushes indiscriminantly

currently

the current is flowing in a direction

i can’t ascertain

it has both clean water

and dirt that stains

so

i will keep this pen to paper

keep a memoir of all i feel

and probably burn it

as fuel

and destroying evidence

i will keep writing

until you are done

and you are finished

and have got

nothing left to say.