Second Chances are Worthwhile
If there is one thing that I have learned this past year its that you need to have an open, loving and forgiving heart. No matter what happens, we need an open heart to let the love in because our hearts are a place not a destination.
Things may not always go the way we hoped for, but they will turn out the way they are supposed to eventually at the right time.
I met this B almost a year ago. We had amazing moments together that I will forever cherish, and eventually we had a falling out. The falling out was difficult.
The last thing I wanted was to lose someone, I was developing feelings for and had a strong connection with. For me, he was my dream man because he had a lot of the qualities that I am looking for in a life partner.
The Heart Ache Misery
For months, I dated other people to find those feelings and that connection that we had. I failed miserably and it sucked every time. I was scared that I wouldn’t have that again. I wanted to feel all those beautiful feelings with him again. I wanted him back.
Weeks later, I asked him if I could have him back and he rejected me. And I felt defeated and heartbroken all over again.
I stopped chasing to have those feelings again and knew if it was meant to be it would happen.
Second Chances are Worthwhile
Months later…. I followed my gut and I messaged him, we started talking and catching up. After weeks of trying to get together, it finally happened. When I saw him all the feelings that I was chasing and attempting to get over were right there in front me - they weren’t an illusion, they were real, and I was feeling them.
We are slowly working on our relationship for the second time. He is worth fighting for because I know one day I could love him. Sometimes time apart and a fresh perspective make second chances worthwhile.
Our time apart was good for me because I was able to experience things that I don’t think I would have otherwise. The heartbreak is sometimes part of the journey, so we can end up where we are supposed to be. Seeing other people to know what I had with him is truly special, one of a kind, and he is the person that I want to be with.
All the Feels
Although we don’t get to spend a lot of time together because life sometimes gets in the way. He still makes me feel like the most special and beautiful woman in the world. The way that he looks at me, touches me and talks to me it takes me to another place. He gives me the supports and drive to keep going and chasing my dreams.
Sometimes as a girl that is what we need, someone to see us the way that we want to see ourselves, can acknowledge our presence as a human being and accept us for who we are.
He has changed my world forever. I’ve never felt so much joy and happiness with one person. He has made me feel things that I am not used to feeling such as a sense of security, beauty and confidence.
With him, I’ve come to realize what is important to have in life; someone to love and support you. It’s not about anything else.