The Crone and Her Earworm
Dedicated to Crone friends around the world♥️

Too many broken hearts have fallen in the river
Too many lonely souls have drifted out to sea
You lay your bets and then you pay the price
The things we do for love, the things we do for love. 10CC
This Crone just spent a chunk of change with IAWAKE downloading binaural brainwave entrainment meditations. With my technical skills, it’s taken me most of the day to download them on to my iPad. My iPhone seems to be frozen in some sort of time warp permanent download. I’m not sure it will recover.
The meditations work with the Delta and Theta brainwaves for deeper, more profound meditating, increasing creativity and intuition, help working with dreams, and inducing healing states. WOW; endless possibilities! This Crone believes that meditation is the key to spiritual growth, but honestly, up until now I’ve sucked at it! I like to chalk it up to my mutable Sagittarius tendencies of going where the wind takes me, but maybe that’s an excuse! Meditation takes commitment, and let’s be honest, this Crone has never been great at committing to anything for any length of time. I’m hoping these meditations will help with the commitment part. I still have so many things to learn; putting them off isn’t really an option anymore.
After listening to the first meditations, I was taking a shower, and an ear worm invaded my Crone ears. My first thoughts were annoyance. Why spend all this money for a meditation series to have an earworm looping “THE THINGS YOU DO FOR LOVE?!” That brought up memories I didn’t want to be thinking about! One thing I’ve learned though, the Universe speaks in the language of signs and symbols. The trick is to be in the moment and paying attention. Okay, so maybe that meditation slowed my chattering brain down enough to pick up this message. Usually the things we resist will persist. This message was pushing it’s way up from my inner shadows and asking me to stop and shine a little light on the subject. So I did.
Actually I had heard this song at Ringo’s concert, but it went right over this Crone’s head. Obviously it required an earworm to get my attention. I suppose men have issues with this subject, but it has been an overriding thread in the fabric of so many womens’ lives. If there were a coronation for this theme, at one point in time I would have been crowned the reigning queen of “the things you do for love.” It took a lot of heartbreaks to begin moving out of that darkness. It’s not only been about romantic relationships, it‘s encompassed working relationships, friendships, and family relationships. “The things you do for love.”
There’s no need of going into great detail. You’ll recognize yourself if you’ve been a part of “the things you do for love club.” This isn’t about berating ourselves for the choices we’ve made, or lingering on the what if’s. This is about healing our hearts. For me it’s been acknowledging my part in all of this, then forgiving myself and others, then letting it all go. It’s been a part of my journey, but it doesn’t define who I am. Every step of the journey has led to this moment. I’ve found it’s a lot easier to forgive others than to forgive myself. It’s a lot easier to love others than it is to love myself. There’s more than one key to this spiritual journey. Perhaps the biggest key is self love. We’ll never be perfect; that’s not why we’re here. We’re here to learn to love ourselves; our beautiful and sometimes messy and irrational selves. Our journey is to love and embrace every single aspect of ourselves. No one can do it for us. In Colette Baron-Reid’s Wisdom of Avalon Oracle deck, the LETTING GO card says, “ Old and outmoded ideas about life, how you see others, who you are, based on who you were__these must also be left behind. There is so much freedom in that sentence.
So annoyance at the Crone’s earworm has turned into gratitude. I see where I I’ve been and how far I’ve come. It’s no longer about “the things I do for love.” It’s more about being in service to love. It’s what the Universe is asking of us, now more than ever.
In love and gratitude,
Cate

