Cover Up

I am both high key and low key very lonely. How is that so? I believe that I’m high key lonely and it’s visually and physically obvious. However, people don’t see what I see. They perceive that there’s nothing wrong, that I’m fine, that I don’t need help; that’s what makes me become low key lonely. But, who doesn’t? I tried, for years, to deny that I’m lonely because I don’t want to feel like a loser. But, lately, this loneliness has started to consume me and drained me emotionally. I am ashamed of my loneliness. I admit that I’m a very dependent to other people as in I am unable to survive alone and I need other people to be with me. It’s a weakness that can never be removed. Help.