The 100th Sheep
The feeling of waking up empty, like a shell at the mercy of nature’s forces, can be overwhelming. When you find yourself surrounded by piles of clothes, dust, and your own thoughts, it can be difficult to see a way out. It’s a feeling of being stuck, and while you may loathe your state, you settle for it because you don’t believe that there is anything better out there. The belief that you are a failure can be suffocating. While some may say that failing makes you human, it doesn’t make the feeling any less real. The thought that there is nothing you can do to change your state can be crippling. You may even start to see yourself as a failed test subject, one that slipped God’s gaze and ended up cursed with a life that you don’t believe you deserve.
It’s a feeling of being death’s plaything, the devil’s amusement. The belief that you are no more special than a latrine pit or a deformed pig dressed in apparel of scorn and disgust can be hard to shake. Even worse, you may find that you wake up every day only to ruin it further. As someone who feels like the 100th sheep, left behind to rot, it’s easy to feel cursed. You may believe that you are the cause of despair and pain, a desert of misery where nothing grows. You may see yourself as a burden, a woe betide that brings nothing but strife and despair to those around you.
Yet, even as you carry this weight, there is something inside of you that refuses to be defeated. You may feel broken, but you know that you are not depleted. You are part of a larger group of outcasts, misfits, and lost souls who are waiting to be shown that they matter. There is a spark within you, and it’s time to let it shine. You may be the 100th sheep, left behind to rot, but you have a voice. You have the power to rise up against the indifference and be heard. You may feel like you are nothing, but you are part of something bigger. You are part of a community of people who dare to be different and who are ready to make a difference in the world.
In conclusion, the feeling of being the 100th sheep, left behind to rot, can be overwhelming. It’s easy to feel like a burden, a woe betide that brings nothing but pain and suffering to those around you. But even as you carry this weight, there is something inside of you that refuses to be defeated. You are part of a larger group of outcasts, misfits, and lost souls who are ready to make a difference. You have a voice, and it’s time to be heard.
