Where are you [God]
Then the Lord God called to the man, and said to him, “Where are you?” Genesis 3:9
You ask us where we are, you test us in our faith, yet I am so unclear as to where you are. Why must I answer the call every time to be faithful but, you..you can choose when and who you will respond to. I have been looking and searching and praying you send me relief, yet I find none.
Where are you during my heartache, pain, suffering, confussion. Forever in this loop of falling into a deep depression. When only being alone under my thick comforter in my dark room with the rain being prepelled against the windows and gloomy clouds outside do I feel…safe.
You’ve taken away so much, leaving me with little hope. I have began to expect the good things to be taken from me. The physical pain: fine. The emotional trauma: fine. But together? Fine. All at one time? No. To be constantly bombarded with one more thing a week after the other. I am exhaused. I cannot find the light at the end of the tunnel. I don’t even know if I can take one more.
So, where are you? Becuase I have been here asking for months without answer.