This is my focus gauge.
It’s really the propane tank gauge before we filled it for the summer. But, I feel this image. I feel like I’m doing everything to the best of my ability, and I’m feeling good about what I’m doing, and then I check the gauge…. And my efforts have kept us just out of the red.
I know this is what my kid feels. It’s why she’s failing eighth grade. She’s tried and tried and tried, and for all that she still fails or barely passes. Why expend energy when you’re going to fail anyway?
I totally get it, Kid.
In my case, I think the Army broke my brain. I’m too stupid to quit no matter how high the wave or how deep the hole. They pounded into us, never quit. The only time you really fail is when you quit. They are right.
We have two weeks to make up an entire quarter’s worth of assignments, and even then, we have no assurance she will pass. This school thinks ADHD is an excuse to be lazy. They target her and it’s not right. I want her to pass to make a goddamn point. I’m going to homeschool her for a while to get her up to speed in highschool.
I sat with her till 1am and we got some English assignments finished.
I got you, kid.