
My Heart vs. My Mind
I used to pour my guts on the page
I used to spill my heart out to you
But for some reason my words are vile
And they sting even in my mind
So I put them away and let them dissipate
Not just to protect you
But to protect my own feelings
Because I’m not feeling them right now.
I’m letting them go.
It’s easier to deal with
But I seem to be pushing you away
by not feeling anything
And that’s all the matter with me.
I can logically tell you what happened and why things happen,
but I have no emotion towards anything that matters anymore because it’s painful.
If I let myself care at home, all I feel is pain
If I let myself fall for you, I’m scared shitless of losing you
So it’s easier to pretend you’re not even mine to lose in the first place…. Pathetic
